Summit Remixed, Your Style, Your Music :-)

We just had our Summit X-mas party held last December 14, 2004 at Galleria Trade Hall.
We joined the contest out of the 5 contestants.

JobStreet presented the Pepsi commercial of Beyonce, Pink and Britney Spears, merged with William Hung as She Bangs and lastly, Sandara Parks as Walang Sabit.

Take a funny look at ourselves. We did not get any place but we believe and as the other's choice, we should be the 2nd place:

" Maya as Pink"

" Winnie as Britney Spears "

" Grace as Beyonce "

" Kimchi as William Hung "

" Raffy as Sandara Parks "

" Sandara and the back-up dancers (from left: Abs, Abi, Baet and Emmy) "

" The Group "

Moon River

Whenever I hear this song especially in the telenovela "Lovers in Paris" , I really can't help but "kiligin" I don't know why, it's just that I really love the song.

Moon River - by: Perry Como

Moon river, wider than a mile
I'm crossing you in style some day
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker
Wherever you're goin', I'm goin' your way

Two drifters, off to see the world
There's such a lot of world to see
We're after the same rainbow's end, waitin' 'round the bend
My huckleberry friend, Moon River, and me
(Moon river, wider than a mile)(I'm crossin' you in style some day)

Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker
Wherever you're goin', I'm goin' your way
Two drifters, off to see the world
There's such a lot of world to see
We're after that same rainbow's end, waitin' 'round the bend
My huckleberry friend, Moon River, and me
(Moon River, Moon River)

Whatever!!!!!!! --- >>>Don't be puzzled

I will really never know what will happen next in my whole life, my entire life. I will be the one to decide on what will really happen and bloom. As for the moment career wise, I need to move to another step of my career, if not in this country and to a better company, I will have to relocate to abroad. This is for the better of my life with my son. I can only rely to myself and to no one else. If God will let me marry again, this will happen at the right time and to the right guy.

My A-holics team knows half of my entire life, now of what's hapenning to me (they know what it is) they just commented "WHATEVER". My half sister knows about it too, and she said : "Don't be puzzled, just let it flow just like the number 8, it goes on and on and does not have an ending. Just let it be and let it happen, and things will fall into the right place". My sister is right, I shouldn't be thinking of it, meaning I should not let it be important. My friends tell that I should stop and avoid but how can I be happy of helping if I'll do that. I am not expecting anymore, I have accepted it although it's hard but I know I can make though, I know myself, this will be easy for me.

I know what I want, I know what I want to do, I know my plans, I am focused and I can make decisions.

There are always reasons behind for everything that is happening to me ................
Patience will be my guide and perseverance.

Unexpected movie - "National Treasure"

It was an unexpected movie watching last night but it was a great movie for me from Nicolas Cage (my super duper crush, hunk of a man). Hope you guys watch it too .......

Some of the scenes from the movie, you won't get sleepy because you'll think of the clues also :-)

Cast : Diane Kruger as Abigail Chase; Nicolas Cage as Benjamin Franklin Gates; Justin Bartha as Railey.

"What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?" -

"You must remember this, a kiss is still a
kiss". Your romance is Casablanca. A
classic story of love in trying times, chock
full of both cynicism and hope. You obviously
believe in true love, but you're also
constantly aware of practicality and societal
expectations. That's not always fun, but at
least it's realistic. Try not to let the Nazis
get you down too much.

What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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Pleasing pictures that makes me smile and relax

Searched pictures to please my eyes so I can relax while at work: I am sharing it with you guys :

Take a deep breathe and smile =)









Time to work again , see yah all soon ............

What number are YOU ?

You Are the Individualist

4 You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

How Cancer Am I ?

You are 87% Cancer

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

Out of 21489 people the average score was 65%

Added me in Friendster

Grabe, one of my super duper crush added me in his Friendster list, ohhhhh love ko sya ........ pero pero pero, malabo kami dahil di kami para sa isa't isa huhuhuhuhu, friends lng tlaga kmi.

Sya ang ala Brad Pitt na gsto ko, hayyyyyy.... sana makatagpo ako ng tulad nya, super galing mag drumms and napaka sweet din na guy kahit ilang beses ko pa lng sya nakasama at nakita with his girlfriend.

Muahhh, muahhh, muahhh ng marami syo :-)

Doesn't matter what he wants, what matters is WHAT I WANT !!!!

Thanks for my cancerian buddy out there Maya, I had a little chat with her and got to know her insights of what I've been going thru, she's very patient to me, giving advices and to think she's inexperienced when it comes to LOVE. She's indeed available and didn't have yet a bf. Whewww, that's one of a kind Maya, Thanks to you.

I Guess Am really OK

I am looking myself at the mirror and said to myself, "Hey Winnie, I guess your OK now, surviving and moving on ....... :-).

I can smile and laugh true enough coming deep within. Now, I can think of a much clearer way and ideas especially for my life , our lives.....

I really don't know what to say for myself, all I know is that for now, I'm tired to letting my heart beat again and again and again. I just want to stop for now and let somebody in again at the right time and hopefully the right guy already.

My Future and Immediate Plans

It was a night to call last Friday from Red Door together with the A-holics, I had 2 bottles of San Mig Light, which made me sleep good then with the Acoustic Music to my ears from different bands played that night.

It was also a great weekend for me last Saturday and Sunday. I was able to woke up late in the morning then just watched TV all day then sleep again in the afternoon and beside me is my son =)

I was also able to think what my future plans for my entire life, my career and me being a single mom.

I just have to really keep this in mind to push me harder for reaching all of it:

1. Find a better job with better salary rate and that will make me satisfied and happy.
2. Find a possible way of going abroad
3. Transfer my son to a better school
4. Then if already abroad, fix documents of son to getting him
5. Stay abroad for years until I have enough money to start my own business here , to buy our own house and lot and manage to have Vince study abroad.

For now, these are my list that I would want to pursue .

I hope that these will be soon =)

Said : Thank You =)

It was great to hear "Thank You" from someone you treasured. Sighh, it feels good when I heard that, I was appreciated, I said " Walang anuman". All my help comes from my heart, for the better.

Risky it is, but I know God will guide me all throughout this journey. Whatever the results will be, am sure it will still be for good of us.

Letting me understand more my use to him and mission in life. Is it really a mission? I don't know, I really don't. Whatever it is I'm just doing the best I can.

Along the road that I am taking now, I'm pretty sure there will be someone waiting for me and truly will make me happy until the time I get old with added children. I have asked my son Vince if he likes to have a sister or brother and my God, he said "YES" but to whom? I just told him , be patient it will come at the right time from the right guy.

Sarap pala ng feeling ng ganito =)

I will let my hair be long again just like this ---->

I want my hair long again, promise........

I can't remember when was this picture taken.



Di yata ako stress dito sa picture na ito, hmmmm bkt kaya ?

Yellow cab day care of Baet

November 12, 2004
12:00 pm
YellowCab Resto
Robinsons Galleria Mall

Aholics Attendees:


From left: Kim, Baet, Shiena, Winnie, Maya and Kimchi


Me and Maya

Libre ito ni Baet, "Sana Maulit muli ang mga oras nating nag YellowCab" hahaha, kantahin ba ......

Inggit ang mga wala belat ......

Huling Sulat para sa Kanya

My Dearest,

Today is the final start and final decision, friends na lang tayo. At least we are...... Things really happen for a reason but this time I can only think of one reason pa lang, yun ay di tayo para sa isa't isa ngyn dahil di ko rin masasabi kung para tyo in the future, puede ring para tlaga tyo sa iba. Only God knows di ba. Ang mahalaga sakin ngyn ay kalimutan na lng natin ang nakaraan at i-maintain ang masasayang araw natin kasama na ang hirap at ginhawang pinagdaanan natin. Ayoko ng pag-usapan pa ang nakaraan at magsumbatan, ang sakin, ang totoo, nagmahal ako ng tunay, umunawa, nagbigay at sumuporta. Alam kong may mga pagkakamali din ako pero alam ng Diyos na di ko yun sinadya, mangyari lng na naghanap cguro ako ng atensyon at lubos na pagmamahal dahil inakala kong wala ito.

Sa anim na buwan, naging mahalaga ito para sakin, I always treasure my relationship kahit mahaba pa ito o maikli. Di ko rin kayang sabihin na babaguhin ko ang sarili ko sa tema ng pagmamahal , ako na ito since birth na ganito na tlaga ako magmahal. Cguro may mga kailangan lang ipolish depende sa partner ko. I always keep myself naman open for improvement. Sa lahat ng naging bf ko, ngyn lng ako nagsilbi ng ganito di ko alam kung bakit basta heto ang iniuutos ng puso ko, iba iba silang lahat ng pingadulutan ko ng love. Di ako ipokrita para sabihin ko na di ako nasaktan, of course nasaktan ko dahil nagmahal ako, pero ang keyword lng dyan ay "Acceptance" and "Move On".

Hindi ko rin puede sabihin at utusan ang sarili at puso ko na "Ayoko na" at na "Di na ako magmamahal ulit". Buhay ako, at hangga't nananalig ako sa Diyos , alam ko na bibigyan nya ako ng pagmamahal at tuturuan pa rin magmahal. Di ba nga God is Love. Alam ko rin na maraming plano para sakin pero ako pa rin ang gagawa nito sa buhay ko. At least alam ko sa sarili ko kung hanggang saan ang kaya kong ibigay sa buong buhay ko, na kaya kong tumayo sa sarili kong mga paa at na sa bawat pagkakadapa ko at marunong akong bumangon mag-isa gaano man ito kasakit at gaano man kalalim ang sugat na dulot nito. Marami na akong pinagdaanan mag-isa sa buhay kahit nung bata pa lang ako. Ang pinakamahalaga sakin ngyn ay yung tinuruan ako ng Papa ko na maging independent sa anumang bagay maging decision making man ito. Ngayon ko nakikita ang effect nito sa buhay ko.

Anuman ang maging decision ko, mali man ito sa huli, di ako puedeng magreklamo dahil ginusto ko yun at kailangan ko itong harapin.

Wala akong pinagsisisihan na nagmahal ako at minahal kita dahil Love yun. Kung di ko sinubukan na maging kami, paano kung maging maganda pala ang resulta nun, eh di nagsisi lang ako, at least sinubukan ko tanggapin ka at mahalin ka di man ito nagwork out. Sa Love kasama lahat tlaga ang saya, pain, risk at marami pang iba. Na test ko rin ang sarili ko ngayon, na kaya ko pala magmahal sa ibang paraan, meaning I'm capable of loving like that pala or should I say marunong akong magmahal pala di mo nga lng cguro nagustuhan.

There's no one to be blamed here, we both have our lapses and shortcomings. Maybe or surely we can use what we have learned in our next or future partner and relationships.

Ngyn, let's both forget the past and start anew as friends and not just friends but good friends or maybe best friends :-). Ayokong maging bitter although alam kong kasama ito sa buhay pero kailangan kong iwasan ito para maging maligaya ako sa buhay ko.

All I can promise to you now as your friend is that, kung makakatulong pa rin ako sayo sa abot ng makakaya ko eh tutulungan pa rin kita. Sa suporta, kung kailangan mo ito sa isang kaibigan, alam kong maibibigay ko pa rin ito gaya sa iba. Sana lang eh maramdaman ko na kaibigan mo pa rin ako at yung puede ko rin takbuhan kung kailangan ko ng kaibigan , sana, sana sana .........

Heto na cguro ang huling mensahe ko para sa sarili ko at lalo na sa kanya.

May God Bless us always and may our dreams still be fulfilled with our own perseverance in life.

Nagmahal,

Winnie

More Blessings to come !

Wow, it was an to call afternoon yesterday, whewww, I was drained by that exam, the three of us :-)
We really don't know what would be the test results, as per HR person, the results will be emailed either today or on Tuesday but untl now there is no email from them, oh no, does that mean we failed, huhuhu, oh please please give us a chance for a better career.

Anyway, if it's really for us, God will give it to us. We'll just wait until Tueday :-) For sure there will more to come.

Letting Go Inspirations

The Romance Rev’s Soulful Love Reminders

"Many of us function as if we are only half complete. If we project the vibration of half of an individual, looking around for someone else to complete us, we attract an incomplete relationship. The resulting interaction with anyone attracted in this manner will usually come up short of what we ideally desire."~ Ken Page, from his Heart and Soul Healing Newsletter
Last month we talked about "taking on" a summer love consciousness and for many months we have explored ways to invite soulful love into our lives. My own beloved sent me the above quote from relationship expert Ken Page http://www.kenpage.com/ and it reminded me that while we "await" soulful lovers it is wise to do all we possibly can to get ready for love. You’ve heard these from me before! The following tips are just reminders of how to shape up for the love of your life.

DON'T HATE BEING SINGLE. Use times of longing and yearning for love to prepare for a new relationship. Assess the state of your life and begin to create the life you want to be leading – even if there is no one to share it with yet.

HEAL AND MOVE ON FROM THE PAST. Liberate yourself from obstacles that stand in the way of love by healing old heartaches, relationships and self-sabotaging relationship patterns. Now is the time to make decisions about letting go of any relationships that no longer serve you.

CLEAN UP YOUR LIFE. Start with a draw; don’t stop until you’ve removed physical clutter, junk, old memories and memorabilia from you environment. Acknowledge what’s out of place in your life – physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and financially – and take action to put things into balance. Pay off debts, deal with old paperwork, and take full charge of your life. True love can’t hope to find you if your life is too cluttered.

EVOKE THE ENERGY OF LOVE. Write, visualize, pray, and express gratitude for love as if it is already in your life. Make collages of pictures of couples in love, make wish lists, write stories about the relationship you choose; use any creative tools you are comfortable with to ask for all the Divine help you can get! And daydream… spend your idle time just dreaming about the love your desire.

BECOME SOUL-MATE FRIENDLY. Make an effort to ditch old baggage, disempowering beliefs, neediness and worry that can block or disable your ability to discern true love – or even a good romantic opportunity – from inappropriate relationships that come in misleading packaging. If you take the time to enjoy single life, heal from past relationship mishaps and give thought to the love you really want, it will be much easier for your soulful lover to find you!

When you daydream about love... do you see what your soul mate looks like? Describe that person.

If the Feeling is Gone, I will let you go ......

By: Ella Mae Saison

If the feeling is gone
please don't pretend that you still love me
I can see it in your eyes and it hurt to admit it
I can't tell that the feeling is gone
All i ask is just a little honestly
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you know
If the feeling is gone
There is sadness in your smile
Though it try to conceive it
I can't tell if the feeling is gone
All i ask is just a little honestly
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you know
If the feeling is go--ne
All i ask is just a little honestly
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you know
I just have to let you know
If the feeling is gone
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I really wish for us to really let go then start again as true friends..................... That's all I hope and wish now.
Hoping that soon you'll talk to me already to finish things if you really want to.
It will truly hurt me but I will accept it , I just don't want us to be enemies.

Sleepy today, haaaay.....

I am sleepy today but I don't want to drink coffee................


Sana puede ako ganito matulog hehehehe :-)

I'll Always Remember the Happy Memories

I can't help thinking my past happy memories especially the past few days.
God I missed it, all of it, but it's all memories for now and will be for tomorrow.
They all gave me one great love that I will always treasure forever. Still I am bringing the name of my hubby maybe because no one can replace his love for me. Until now he proves to me his love, he's been protecting me all the way. He's my angel and my light and of course my dad and BB.

Here's a picture with him when I was pregnant , I was 5 months preggy :-)


A picture from Treasury dept's X-mas party - I'm the Jr. Bills Processor there.

Grabe na ito :-)

It's really a good , a very good today. Why? I received an email from one of my colleague, I will have an appointment on Thurs in Makati, hopefully this works out :-) Please pray for me harder.....

Then I received a text from one of my friends here from JS, setting an appointment on Monday for a business proposal to me as added extra income.

Then I got a call from the husband of one of my college friends, we never heard from each other for 3 years and now we have communication again. Wow, isn't it amazing.......

Really God knows how to make me happy .

Thank you Lord for everything.

It seems I'm having a good day EVERYDAY :-)

Well, well, well, what can I say, huahhhh, I AM HAPPY TODAY AND ONWARDS :-)

Myabe because, I'm over it , accepted it and starting to move on to the right way -------> to the right way of course........ I know what road should I take, I'm not confused, I can carry and face challenges in my life whatever it is, hahahaha, I know I can make. I should enjoy my life now or never.....

I know I have been blessed of a guardian angel since then. I can really feel it, it's my husband and the others. Why? I know for sure that my hubby wants me to be happy and not to suffer and just to cry always. He wants me to fight for myself and Vince.

I know in God's time , he will let me meet the right person to come into my life together with my son and we'll live happily ever after.

How to Reduce Stress :-)

1. Pray
2. Go to bed on time.
3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
4. Say No, to projects that won't fit into your timeschedule, or that will compromise your mental health.
5. Delegate tasks to capable others.
6. Simplify and unclutter your life.
7. Less is more.
(Although one is often not enough, two are often too many.)
8. Allow extra time to do things and
to get to places.
9. Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficultprojects over time;
don't lump the hard things all together.
10. Take one day at a time.
11. Separate worries from concerns. If a situation is a concern, find out what God would have you to do and let go of the anxiety. If you can't do anything about a situation, forget it.
12. Live within your budget;don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases.
13. Have backups; an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc.,
14. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut).This single piece of advice can prevent an e normous amountof trouble.
15. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.
16. Carry a Bible with you to read while waiting in line.
17. Get enough exercise.
18. Eat right.
19. Get organized so everything has its place.
20. While driving, listen to a tape that can help improve your quality of life.
21. Write thoughts and inspirations down.
22. Every day, find time to be alone.
23. Having problems? Talk to God on the spot. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed to try and pray.
24. Make friends with Godly people.
25. Keep a folder of favorite scriptures on hand.
26. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good "Thank you, Jesus!"
27. Laugh.
28. Laugh some more!
29. Take your work seriously, but yourself not at all.
30. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people aredoing the best they can).
31. Be kind to unkind people
(they probably need it the most).
32. Sit on your ego.
33. Talk less; listen more.
34. Slow down.
35. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.
36. Every night before bed,think of one thing you're grateful for that you've neverbeen grateful for before.

GOD HAS A WAY OF TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR YOU."If God is for us, who can be against us?" (Romans 8:31)

How to Enjoy Life

HOW TO ENJOY LIFE
1. Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctor worry about them. That is why you pay him/her.
2. Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.
3. Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. " An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.
4. Enjoy the simple things.
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
6. The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.
7. Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
8. Cherish your health: If it is good, pre serve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
9. Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.
10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Angels are watching over you.

Waiting no MORE

I do not wish to wait anymore....... I give up already, all I want is true friendship maybe if he doesn't want also anymore.

I don't know what will happen in the next coming days, weeks and months. I just wish him all the best especially in his work, family and lovelife. Well, I wish for the both of us. That both our dreams will come true.

All I can promise now is I can still be his friend or much more a best friend :-) Hope he can accept me for that.

Guide us both Lord and may we find the happiness in life that we want.

I'm Sorry - by: Butuin Escalante

I guess this song fits me kahit konti :-(
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I’m sorry

How many times have you walk out that door
How many times have you told me before
How many times have you made me cry once more
And all you have to say was I’m sorry

How many times have you left me with no trace
How many times have you lied to my face
How many times have you done me disgrace
And all you have to say was I’m sorry

* And now you’re coming back to me
And all you have to say is I’m sorry
The same old story, can’t you see
And all you have to say is I’m sorry
I guess the greatest irony
It’s time to give you my apology
We’re done and now its history
And all I have to say is I’m sorry

How many times have I planned to go
How many times have I gathered my with
How many times have I wanted to quit
And all you have to say was I’m sorry

(Repeat *)

I won’t let you know, I won’t let you go
Once, many times I’m done, I’m tired
You lied I’d rather have you out of my life

(Repeat *) I’m sorry...

Now, It's the Time to Speak

I want burst it all out now since last week, today I am ready to speak.
Today, the floor is open for me, my co-bloggers you may post violent reactions:

1. Ikaw, ikaw at ikaw, you are so self-centered person and selfish
2. Only thinking of yourself
3. You only want to be loved but you don't know how to love
4. I hate you but honestly I still love you :-(
5. You're such a coward guy
6. You're immature and inconsiderate person
7. How could you do this to me?
8. How dare you say those words to me?
9. No wonder ..........
10. I pity for you ....because you're alone now and no one to talk to and to support you
11. You had just made me a more stronger woman
12. How can I forget you? You are the first person who did this to me ......hah, you bet I can stand still.
13. I don't derserve you!!!
14. I deserve someone better who will accept me for who I am and what I am.

All I know is I know how to love, give and understand. But if my partner will not cooperate, things will not work out right and smooth.
It really hurts because, I did my best, gave my best and all, loved truly but I was never given a single importance and the right love. That's all I'm asking .....

Life Blogger is me

You Are a Life Blogger! Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

www.blogthings.com http://www.blogthings.com/bloggerquiz.html What kind of blogger are you?

Maya, pareho tyo na Life Blogger , hehehe :-)

Strengthen me Lord more

Just guide me and give me more strenght my Lord especially now that I am in the middle of disturbance.

Help me also to stop crying, I'd like to stop this and accept things step by step. Give me more patience and show me signs of peace. Give me the signs that will make me truly happy.

Let me be standing still, my dearest husband, father and late BB, please be my guide and angel for everthing and to all that is happening to me now. Please do the same with my son and loveone.

HAPPINESS AND LOVE IS ALL THAT I NEED AND NOTHING ELSE.

I don't want you to go - Lani Hall

I don't want you to go - Lani Hall
Here I am Alone
and I don't understand
Exactly how it all began
The dream just walked away I'm holdin' on
When all but the passion's gone ;

And from the start
Maybe I was tryin' too hard
It's crazy, 'cause it's breakin' my heart
Things can fall apart, but I know
That I don't want you to go;

And here was I
When they ignore the cause inside
But they learned from what's left behind
And fight for something else
And so it goes
That we have both learned how to grow ;

And from the start
Maybe I was tryin' too hard
It's crazy, 'cause it's breakin' my heart
Things can fall apart, but I know
That I don't want you to go

Oh, it's just too much
Takin' all the whole world all by myself
Oh, there's nothin' done
Unless I stop trustin' somebody else
Somebody else, and love again ;

And from the start
Maybe I was tryin' too hard
It's crazy, 'cause it's breakin' my heart
Things can fall apart, but I know
That I don't want you to go
Maybe I was tryin' too hard
It's crazy, 'cause it's breakin' my heart
Things can fall apart, but I know
That I don't want you to go ;
Oh no, I don't want you to go
Say that you won't go

Exploded :-(

There was an entry of mine entitled "Hope I Could Still Make it....." Now, I am making my entry as " Exploded", meaning I wasn't able to make it anymore. I gave up already, can't take it anymore to be treated unequal and to be fooled and lied to.

Now, what am I wishing for at this moment :

> to be really over it
> to be peaceful
> to be loved until when I get old bcoz I can also give love
> to be a more stronger woman
> a fighter
> a go getter
> to be more mature
> to learn more in different aspects like work, life, love and trials
> to be understood bcoz I am willing to understand
> to be well taken cared of
> to be a more responsible mother
> to be happy and healthy
> and to have money for better living

I really hope and wish for all of these sooner or later, one step at a time.

Octoberfest na !!!!!!!

OCTOBERFEST NA 2004 !!!!!! Grabe, I miss this gig, kahit di Octoberfest nakakapunta ako sa mga gigs especially pag Razorback ang may play.

Anyway, view pics from their past years with my late one :



This is picture with Wolfgang


The Razorback Band


Their show for Cebu


Show in Folk Arts Theater at the back stage

Hope I Could Still Make it........?

Today and and this time is my bloggin day again (well everday is my blogging day, hehehe).

I don't know if this is really a challenge to me that's why I named my blog as " My Never Ending Story " because my challenges and trials doesn't end.

My only goal in life together with my son is to be happy most especially with my Ally and nothing else. I don't want to start and start again from square one.

Hope everything will turn out right for us because I can't tell to myself that I've made the wrong decision. I took this risk and I am willing to face it.

Transitions since then ........

This is the most thrilling one, view the hottest pictures i retrieved from my drive C; you can see the changes from our hair and weight and looks also especially me.

Picture # 1:

It's Baet, Shiena and me (Winnie) - obviously we are eating, I just can't remember why we are eating here and what's the occasion, basta kasi may kainan, present kami lagi :-)

Picture # 2:

Me and Shiena - may client call kami nito as far as I remember di ko na nga lang tanda kung sang client

Picture # 3:

Baet, Maya, Winnie and Shiena - kainan pa rin ito, same day of pictire #1, tignan nyo kung gano pa kaikli buhok ni Baet :-)

And lastly Picture # 4 :

O di ba bongga ang kuha ko dito ang ikli ng hair ko at take note katabi ko sa picture nito si Charlene Gonzales, crop ko nga lng dahil mas maganda ako sa kanya, chuvaaa......

Cadence

Hahaha, where can I find this old movie that I really wanted to watch again. I could not forget this movie, don't know why :-)

You bloggers out there, if you have a vcd or dvd of this movie, please please please I beg let me borrow it.

Couch Potato - Amazing !

We were on our way to our Friday gimmick madness, "The Basement"

The stars are: Maya, Winnie. Kim, Shiena, Kimchi, Emmy, Camille, Baet, Fritz, Raffy, Doodle and Dennis. We had so much fun drinking and of course dancing till mornin'

I went home at 3 am, whewww, it's been a long time since I went home at the same time from a gimmick.

But no hangover, just can't get up in bed for being so sleepy.

Got up before lunch time and started to be a couch potato.

Movies I watched, take a look :

The Hostess !!!

Well ,well well, see me last Friday at Grilla?

A very dashing pic from Emmy's digicam :

grabe ang taba ko na :-(


Have a look at some pics from the party:We don't know if we'll still be here next year, coming soon and next attraction ..............

@ 5 years

Aha, just remembered that I did celebrate my 5th year here in JobStreet, same with Baet. It's really been so long for me and Baet. We really hope to get out of here next year :-)

Wanna see us how we looked like of 1999 to 2004:

Take a wild look and laugh .....



BEFORE - 1999 From left to right: Camille; Noena; Viktor; Winnie: Jhay; Carla & Baet


AFTER - 2004 Baet and Winnie

Daddy's Girl

Got an appointment yesterday, anyway, only the Lord can help me on that, if it's really for me it's for me if it's not it's not :-)

After the meeting, going out of the hotel, only one person whose in my mind, my dad, God I missed him so much, he always comfort me kasi all the support that I need, he's my confidence in everything that I do, as in all the way support, he's really my buddy buddy. If I can only call him up there and talk for a while, I will definitely call him. But of course, he's with the Lord already, I have to remind myself of that.

My Ally called me right away (maybe my dad whispered to him to call me because I really need someone and that he can't make it to me). After saying Hello, Ally asked how was it, then told everything.

We met in megamall, he eased my pain, my depression by just embracing me. For me it really counts a big favor. Thank God I have him in my life.

We had dinner, chat for a while then went home already.

Happy Friday :-)

At last it's Friday already, really looking forward to rest, sleep, and watch dvd for 2 days and of course, reading my newly bought book :-)

Well, tonight we have a Costume party to be held in Grilla Libis, this is a celebration for over hitting September's target way ahead to 4M. We will also be having our monthly communications meeting, some updates and the auction game that will be hosted by ME.

I asked permission with my Ally if I can drink tonight, yes he allowed me but drink moderately :-) Of course I will follow him hehehe.....

We hope to have a great time tonight.

Coolness of Fritz's website

This is so great, Fritz do have his own website http://www.mesedilla.com and he made us special color effects with our names on it that when clicked it will lead you to our own blogs. Coolness !!!! :-) You are so great, I also liked the color.

Anyway, this is what Fritz made :

Summer at the Lake by Andrew Greeley :-)

Whew..... After having lunch with Kimmy, I went straight ahead to Shrine to attend mass. Solemnly prayed to God, really asked for 1 thing if it's really for me, (the interview I had this morning from one of the biggest companies), of course the everyday prayers I say. Yes, I believe that there are no Unanswered prayers, but there are just prayers that the answer is NO.

After the mass, I went to National Bookstore just to window shop on what shall I wear for tomorrow's halloween party in Grilla at Libis. It captured my interest to take at look at the book sale of NBS for only $99 and it's a hard bound book :-) I only saw 1 book that really interests me to pick it up and was urged to buy. I need to save my money for my transportation allowance but I can't help to buy this one at least for myself......
Since me and my Ally is doing great well in our relationship, building more trust to each other, letting each other feel that the love is not changing but growing. I want to have more time for myself, my son and of course for him.

The book is all about "A stunning novel of young love and love regained"

I would really like to start reading this already. I will start tonight.

Saw a picture of the book in google:


By: Andrew Greeley - Best Selling Author of White Smoke

House of Flying Daggers

I just had a date and we watched the movie "The House of Flying Daggers" , It was indeed a great movie for me and my Ally. Although they spoke Chinese and have to read the English translation written up to the end of the movie but still I will give this movie a 4 star ****.

It was also about love, love triangle as well. It is also love for country, sacrificing, and work responsibility.
Watch this film and I hope you'll also love it.

View some scenes that I captured :


"The most wanted kiss that I like doing my love to me"


"The one true love"


"One fight scene"


"The blind dancing queen"


"Jin - as called Wind"


"Mei - Wind's real love"


"Leo - who have loved Mei for 3 years"


"A scene after their passionate love making"